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whoopsie daisy.

2011-05-25T21:49:00.003+08:00

i would upload pictures, but for some reason idk why, my connection doesn't let me to. ever.

for those who haven't read my previous post on Friendship, don't read it IF you're my friend.

why?
i think it may be quite offensive.
the way i talk about how unreliable friends are, etc etc
wait
NO.
i didn't say that.
i didn't say that friends are not reliable. i just said that they're not ALWAYS reliable.

pfft. i suddenly feel as though i shouldn't have posted what i posted. but i guess it's already too late since it's been almost a week already.

I love my friends, i have great friends.
so if you're my friend & you had got offended by my previous post.
please don't be offended :O
silly me, i didn't consider how my friends would've felt when i was writing that post.
gah.

see, this is why i wanna quit blogging.
i keep saying things that contradict my true self & things that offend people.
i keep and keep and keep on saying that i wanna quit, but somehow I just can't get myself to quit.
why?

why why why?

no idea.

anyway, to all my friends out there. I LOVE YOU GUYS :D you've been great to me & please don't take the previous post to heart. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT YOUUUUU.

bye.

Friendship.

2011-05-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

I somehow cannot get it when people say "true friends will always be there for you," etc etc etc. and all the other cheesy friendship quotes.
I mean, whaat?

*okay this post doesn't apply to everyone & i'm not referring to anyone in particular*

Some think that TRUE friends are friends who would

always be there for you
you can always depend on them
you guys love every bit of each other wholeheartedly
etc.

do those things sound ridiculous to you?
cheesy?
yes? no? maybe?

but think about it, that's what most people think TRUE friends are like/meant to be
even if they don't say it out loud or even think about it. because somewhere in their mind, they subconsciously have that thought.
it's probably the influence of movies watched in their lifetime.

true friends are perfect, true friends are flawless, they're always there for you, you can always depend on them.

WRONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

friends have flaws, friends make mistakes.
so what?
YOU DO TOO.

infact, i'll say that I DO TOO.
do i sound less hypocritical now?

here's some friendship quotes:

"true friends will always be there for you"

"you know who your true friends are when they stand by you through everything"

"sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out but see who cares enough to break them down"

etc.

(you can find lots of them in fb, twitter or tumblr -.-)

i'm not saying that those quotes are 100% crap.
they're not.
in a way, they are true, but some people take it so literally that they start eliminating their friends one by one because they got offended by something their friend did, or maybe even unintentionally did.

example 1:
someone says, "are you okay?" you reply "yup" even though you're not, and that person believes you.

see, that's when someone UNINTENTIONALLY offends you because they didn't try to cheer you up.
and don't you dare say to me that they're supposed to know cos
well if they don't do anything to cheer you up, obviously they DON'T KNOW.
stop being petty & hoping that the person would be able to read your mind & feelings & know that you're not okay.

people expect too much. they expect who they think their true friends are to be like 7-11, always open and always there. Then, when their friends make mistake, they angrily throw that friend away & start emo-ing, crying, and continuously post tweets about betrayal & fake friendsthip -.-

to those who think that true friends will ALWAYS be there for you,
THINK AGAIN.
in my opinion, START THINKING DIFFERENTLY.

your friend is NOT always going to be there for you, your friend is going to DISAPPOINT you at times, your friend isn't PERFECT.

like marriage, friendship isn't easy. infact, it's no easier than marriage. okay i know i'm not married, but whatever, you see where im going?

love takes effort, no matter how much you love someone, you still need to try hard.

example 2
okay im gonna talk about my friend & i don't wanna say who this friend is so let's call her Mary.

I love Mary to the max. Even so, we quarrel very often because we both always insist that we're right. also, her moodswings are like mine (or maybe even worse).
Aside from those flaws of our friendship, i still love her enough to ignore those things or let them go.
why lose a friend just because of a few things that annoy you?

also, if someone isn't talking to you
or you're angry because someone who you call your "good friend" or "best friend" doesn't crack up a conversation with you, stop being angryyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
don't wait for them to talk to you
YOU have to talk to them
think about it, if you don't make the effort to talk to them, why should they do the same for you?
maybe that person is ignorantly waiting your for you to start the conversation first as well -.-

example 3
in 2010 when i came to Aus, i was angry at lots of my friends. i felt forgotten, and that no one cared for me.
*shivers* thinking about that makes me feel so ashamed now. firstly, how could they even contact me? i shouldn't expect them to text/call me, it's bloody expensive. some may not have even gotten my email/number.
i always felt like i wasn't included anymore, i felt isolated.
okay we all know that's stupiddddddddddddddd.
i was catastrophizing (i don't think that's a word but whatever), silly me.
it's not like i should expect their lives to stop just because mine wasn't going the way i wanted it to.

ha-ha, dear 14 year old J-Mee, 15 year old J-Mee is laughing at you now even though 16 year old J-Mee is probably gonna laugh at 15 year old J-Mee next time.

anyway, to sum up my whole post. what im trying to say is.

true friendship isn't something easy to maintain, it isn't something that's easy to obtain as well, so don't let it slip out of your grasp.

i've actually had this post planned out in my head for a long time already. but somehow i couldn't get the words out the way i planned. i'm still quite unsatisfied with this post because it's not exactly the way i wanted it to be, but i hope that it's good enough for you guys to understand what i'm talking about.

anyway, sorry if anyone gets offended by this post. or say that im a hypocrite.
i know i'm one anyway

tralalalalala

maybe my life was better off without blogging

okay i'm starting to ramble. shitess

BYEEEE.

CLICK ON NUFFNANG ADS GUYS THANKS :D

MY PIANO EXAM IS IN TWO WEEKS ++.

2011-05-18T19:18:00.006+08:00

And J-Mee says, "On 2nd June, i was meant to be flyinggggggggg to Adelaide!!"

"For what?" you ask.

"To visit my oh-so loving siblings! I'm having a mid-term break & I was meant be staying with them! ♥♥♥" J-mee replies

"Meant? what do you mean by meant?" you ask.

"My piano exam decided to fall on the 3rd of June! Oh nooooooooooooo" J-mee cries!

"Oh dear! what are you gonna do!" you're shocked!

"I bloody have to pay to reschedule my flight & bother my guardians by staying with them for a night(cos the BH will be closed). Not to mention the lost of 24 precious hours to spend time with my beloved siblings!" J-mee starts to cry even more

"Oh noooooooooo, how horribleeeeeeeee". you cry along with J-Mee

"Yeahhh, we were meant to have ice cream together, cook together, go grocery shopping together, etc etc etc" sob sob sob.

anyway ya, i know my trip is only delayed by 24 hours, but it's really disappointing cos initially, i would've had 3 full days with them, but now, i only have 2 full days. oh & i can't skip 3 hours of school -.-
anddddddddddddd i'm probably gonna fail my exam.
pray for meeee
thanks

it's actually quite ironic, the way i get terribly upset every time something doesn't turn out the way i want it to and people who have REAL problems are tough enough to not whine like me.

BYE.

blogspot is unblockedddddddddddd.

2011-05-16T20:06:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE.

it's been about 3 weeks since i last blogged.
well as you should know, my school blocked Blogspot a month + ago. and now for some reason i don't know why, it's unblocked.

anyway i've actually lost my love for blogging already. i was even planning on deleting it. if it weren't for it being unblocked today, i would've deleted it the next time i had blogspot access.

Nic says it's a sign from God that i shouldn't quit blogging.

tralalalala.

anyway i don't have time to blog atm, so many things i wanna talk about though.

oh well.
2 tests this week, pray for me ! :)

WALLPAPER.

2011-04-27T00:27:00.003+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i'm finally able to change my layout!

(for those who don't know, my account went crazzzy once & i couldn't change my layout so Natalie had to do it for me. & i didn't want to do much because i didn't want to trouble natalie too much)

anyway, YES.

AFTER BLOGGING FOR 3 YEARS, I HAVE REALIZED.

not everyone's computers would load up the fonts I see.
somehow some laptops (like my mom's) would show my blog in Arial. Why? I don't know. (it's quite weird though cos I used my mom's laptop to change my layout & I can see the fonts perfectly right now)

well if you don't understand me, sorry. can't help you.

ANYWAY, i'm fairly happy with my new fonts. hee.
it's perkier, kiddier & in a way, girlier.

i can't till the day im older & say to myself, "gosh I was such a stupid kid, spending so much time on her blog & even the layout. tsktsktsk. seriously lifeless".

OKAY BYE :) GONNA SLEEP SOOOOOOOOOOOON.

had a great time at Seafield today ! got myself 4 new polaroid pictures.

oh & a boyfriend too, who's probably gonna cheat on me the moment I step out of this country.

HAHA.

(no I did not seriously get a boyfriend).

BYE!

ps, notice how i've added 1 more nuffnang adv at the bottom of all my posts.

do click on my ads & muah muah muah, j-mee will be so happy.

bye !

stuff.

2011-04-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

Took J-Ren to playschool;

what happened to my hair? x_X

Made Sushi with Mom;

Mom with her motherly clothes + hair.

korean seaweed dad brought back from korea!

mine, it broke halfway HAHA.

I THOUGHT i rotated the picture.

Made cupcakes with J-Anne, Kay & Daryl(sort of);

I thought I rotated this picture too.

wooo cupcakes rised!

Kay.

cupcakes!

Went out with Natalie & Natsumi. It's a good thing Natsumi came cos me & Nat had talked to each other so often we had nothing else to say to each other already;

Hairbrush RAWR!

ss time.

ew my fringe.

hair wheee.

after taking those picts, I camwhored for awhile (don't worry I won't post up those picts). Then Natsu was talking bout stuff &..

Me: Aiya it's okay, I'm facing a crisis too now
Natsu: What happened?
Me: I'm too blind to find my glassses now, I feel like my world is over. I can't see anything.

Lesson learnt: always keep your glasses at somewhere where you can find them easily when you take them off to camwhore.

For those who don't know, I've decided to be half vegetarian cos well, I just eat TOO MUCH MEAT. bleah, apparently it's not good for joints when you get older cos of some kind of acid, idk what lah. anyway I'm a partial vegetarian now, so ya, if you see me eating meat, please snatch it from me & step on it quickly so I won't snatch it back.

potato with broccoli & mozzarella cheese. inspired from Seventeen Magazine.

NB: there isn't as much cheese as it may seem. There's lots of potatoes around the cheese & it blends in sooo well, it looks like cheese.

Made a cake for grandma's 70th;

took some random shots of the road on the way back from ipoh;

camwhored abit today;

J-Ren playing with the tripod I had set-up but didn't use at all.

I lost my external flash so I turned my phone's flash/torchlight now & put it right next to the camera. yes i'm half blind now from staring at the bright light ._.

LOOK LOOK, I LOOK LIKE ONE OF THOSE CHINA LALA GIRLS WHO CAMWHORE EVERY 10 MINUTES OF THEIR LIVES.

look! no pimples with flash wheeee! (i only edited the colour k, i didn't do anything to make myself pimple-less)

ahhh i miss having a flawless face =/

OKAY BONUS HERE.

click on my nuffnang ads THANKS :D

.....?

2011-04-18T00:55:00.004+08:00

watch this.

I would've used red instead of pink as the font but the "dislike" bar was too long.

this video (as in the one i embed) wasnt even the original one, this exact video has been uploaded by sooo many different accounts. and each of them have heaps of dislikes ._.

anyway, wth right?

oh one of my favourite responses (probably cos it's one of the only ones i watched).

wth is wrong with that girl?
btw her name is Alexandra Wallace so do feel welcomed to throw tomatoes at her pictures or her if you actually see her.

anyway, what is wrong with her?

firstly, she can't even get a decent video that doesn't look blur + disgusting
she's wearing a push up bra that makes a cheap ugly cleavage
and the way she talks

omg.
seriously.

how pathetic did she sound when she said,

"where every five minutes.. ok not five minutes, but say like, fifteen minutes".

HOW PATHETIC IS THAT?
SHE'S STUPID.
IF SHE WANTED TO RANT INFRONT OF THE WHOLE WORLD (literally), SHE COULD AT LEAST WRITE IT OUT OR SOMETHING FIRST SO THAT SHE WOULDN'T SOUND STUPID.

it so ruins the "credibility" she's trying to show, if she even has any.
omg.
fail la.
this is seriously, an epic fail.
the way she talks, pathetic giler.

my dear,
if you want to deliver a message, deliver it well.
if not you'd end up sounding stupid, just the way you did.

and what's wrong if their parents grocery shop for them?
don't blame them cos their parents love them enough to travel all the way to campus to pamper them

racist. racist racist racist.

seriously, it's not THAT bad to be a racist, but why announce it publically?

this girl really got herself into deep shit. i didn't read that anywhere but i'm pretty she did, considering the fact that YOUTUBE is the 3rd most popular website in the world. and she had millions of responses telling her how stupid she was -.-

okay, maybe i shouldn't rant too much.

she might irrationally post up a video saying how GRUDGEFUL asians are.

anyway, WALLACE-IST. HAHAHA. NIGAHIGA NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME LAUGH, though some of his videos are just... ._.

KAHMUN.

2011-04-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

idk what's wrong
maybe i'm not the person to comfort you
you may find it awkward to tell me what's bothering you
but i just wanted to let you know,
I'M HERE FOR YOU :D
you don't have to tell me, but just wanted you to know i am always ready !

i'm posting in my blog cos i don't exactly have any other way to contact you.

sms is inconvenient cos, long story
you don't really check your fb.
so yes.

THIS POST IS FOR LOKEKAHMUN INCASE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE TITLE YET.

100TH POST.

2011-04-17T17:46:00.004+08:00

this is the 100th post i've posted !

well technically, it's my 600th+ already but i created a new blog.

anyhoo, I just came back from Australia ! :)

so yes, that's GREAT. WHY?

3 REASONS WHY.

1. I SHALL MAKE LOTS & LOTS OF NOISEEEE
2. MY BLOG WILL BE ALIVE AGAIN COS I CAN BLOG ANYTTIMMEE I WANT TO
3. I CAN UPLOADS LOADS OF PICTS AGAIN COS I GET TO RAID THE CAMERA! : )

OKAY.

I'm meant to be jogging in 10 minutes so this will be a quick post.

I went to Ipoh yesterday & came back today.

SO FAR, i'm kinda missing aus. It's really hot here & I have no homework to do.
yes, i miss homework.

okay,awkward . next topic.

tooks picts to kill time! : )

oh look! it's me ! HAHA.

It's been so long since I last cam-whored without my glasses

Manja ._.

DO WE LOOK ALIKE? :O

I acutally didn't know she was kissing me till we saw the pict.

me screaming cos J-Anne said she wanted another kissy pict cos that one was blur.

oh the horror.

what is J-Anne doing?

OK BAI.

maybe i should post about my birthday celebration. mmm.

oh hi steph! i took this off your facebook. :D

The awesome of the awesomeness.

2011-04-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO CHICKAS.

J-Mee won't be updating that often as her school blocked this website. (blogger.com) (as you know, from her previous post)

__________;

HAI JMEE ,
IMISS YOU FASTER COME BACK OMG WHAT'S TAKING YOU SO LONGGGGG.

Can't wait for you to be back man, seriously ! We can go yamcha at starbucks again , and talk nonsense .

You're coming back this friday ! Which means ,
FRIDAY FRIDAY , GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY .

Okay i gtg now , cause i'm skyping with her now heeeeeeeeeeeee :D

p/s ; Check out my blog kay :p (http://nataliechoong.blogspot.com)

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (L)

oh my goshhhh

2011-04-04T20:56:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone. Just a short update. Incase you didn’t already realize, the previous was an April Fool joke. Unfortunately, it was so not a joke. Guess what happened? One day after I posted that post, my school decided the block ALL blogging websites. WTH? WORDPRESS LIVE JOURNAL BLOGSPOT. BLOGSPOT BLOGSPOT IS GONE WTH So incase you’re wondering how i’m posting this, I sent this whole post to J-Anne so she can help me post it up. HAHAHAHAHA. Yes i’m a blogging addict, so what. Okay, i’m quite busy now cos I have an assignment to do. Toodles !

i'm sorry.

2011-04-01T16:18:00.002+08:00

i think it's about time i stopped blogging.

number 1, it's stupid.
number 2, i keep saying things i shouldn't & end up getting in trouble
number 3, it takes up my studying time.

blogging makes my life miserable.

goodbye. i think i'll delete my blog one week after this post.

i can't blog anymore.

people keep misunderstanding me, people keep insulting me, people keep judging me.

i'm sorry xiaxue, i can't take it anymore. XiaXue said we shouldn't let insults break us down, but i have FAILED!

Marshall is right anyway, blogging was only cool a few years ago. Barney should quit too.

GOODBYE. I HOPE THAT MY BLOG HAS ENTERTAINED ALL OF YOU FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS.

oh okay hi.

2011-03-30T18:42:00.005+08:00

sorry.
for all those rants.
for saying that i wanna die
for asking anyone to kill me.

it's weird how people (me) tend to say things they don't meant when they're angry.
why?
why does anger make us act this way? oh well.

my blog seems to be in a repeating sequence nowadays.

1. i rant for about 30 minutes, a 6-10 paragraph post
2. i explode & release my anger
3. i apologize
4. i find something to rant about
5. sequence 2,3 and 4 repeat again and again and again

so yes, this quick post is based on sequence 3.

story starts when i...
i went to the District Court yesterday.
for those who don't know, i take "Young People & the Law" as an elective subject in school (yes, i was actually interested in law ONCE UPON A TIME)

yes, that wooden place where people fight & shout. where disputes are settled by laywers shouting and roaring at each other. where the judge sits at the front in the middle with the white wig and that hammer thingy (yes i know it is called a gavel). the kind of place you see on TV.

NOPE. that's not how a court is like. well at least not at the one i went to.

the place looked more like this

(sorry couldn't find a bigger picture)

yes, to my disappointment, the place was actually quite modern & well, not what i see on tv (eg my sisters keeper/legally blonde)

anyway, i was quite happy tho. to find out that i wasn't gonna watch a boring case on a divorce or neighbours fighting, etc.

i got to witness a case about smuggling people into the country.

oh btw, i was really diappointed to find out that lawyers aren't as awesome as i thought they would be. maybe it was just the laywers & judge in this case, but they STAMMERED and PAUSED and said "UHHHHH" so much.
SO DISAPPOINTING.
GEEZ ACTORS DO A MUCH BETTER JOB AT WINNING CASES :O
even those who lose(in the movie of course) speak well.

anyway, the men came from Afghanistan cos of the Taliban, bla bla bla . those cruel stuff

they had to travel by a boat that was small, yucky & disgusting. Not to mention the scorching heat from the sun and the cold wet rain.

okay back to topic.

it made me feel a bit bad for complaining about my life

no, don't get the impression that i never knew that there are people living in worse conditions than where i am. but yeah, hope you get the point.

so again, sorry.

& i really need to start posting about new stuff.

although, my blog views strangely increase when I rant.

weird. it's mind BLOWING.

maybe i should keep ranting, maybe my nuffnang money would go up.

oh, quote from mum.

"oh you say your day is shitty? all you have to do is flush the toilet down more loh"

HAHA. then after that she continued the sms, "yes la very lame i know".

ahahahaha

okay bye.

worst worst worst worst WORST day ever.

2011-03-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

i overslept by one hour
******* censored. i can't say what happened.
had to witness a drama (people were crying infront of me & i had no choice but to watch because, long story)
my phone rang in class(it wasn't on silent) & that teacher is... scary (very)
i have so much homework today (and i have orchestra)
this means that i have to sacrifice my afternoon (usually pratice music) to do the stupid homework
had to sacrifice jogging also (i really need jogs when i'm angry)
lost my phone headphones (did i mention already that i lost my ipod headphones? me=no more headphones now)
i lost my community service booklet, have to ask for another one. asking for another is equivalent to DEATH SENTENCE.
had orchestra today (hate orchestra practice in general)
started chemistry today & found out that i forgot EVERYTHING
i threw away all my notes from last year thinking that i didn't need it. was trying to be as light as possible cos i was shifting out of my room & my storage area was very small.
have a math test that i'm not ready for tomorrow
have an english essay to hand in tomorrow

& YOU KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENED?

JACKIE CHAN DIED.
apparently. but he didn't.
stupid prank
i believed it for 15 mins till krys told me it wasn't real

thanks people. thanks for shocking me on my worst day ever.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

2011-03-28T18:38:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAHA
OMG
HAHAHAHHHAHAHAA

I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I HAVE ANOTHER MEDIA ASSIGNMENT PULAK

OMG

HAHAHA
SO FUNNY
THE FACT
THAT I THOUGHT THAT I'D ACTUALLY BE FREE AFTER THIS WEEK
OMG
SO EEEEEFIN FUNNYYYYYYYYYY

I ACTUALLY THOUGHT I'D BE FREE
AHAHA
SILLY ME

kill me please.

full story.

2011-03-27T21:07:00.004+08:00

okay, before i start this post, let me clarify first,

I am NOT angry, I'm not going to rant, I'm just going to complete the whole story.

i'm sorry for sounding so emotionally unstable in that post.
sorry for being so bratty and bitchy also.
selfish, conceited, whatnot.

there's always more than one side to a story. so maybe i have offended this person in some way i didn't know & caused her to say these things about me.
anyway this post is just to clear the whole story up.

it began a few days ago.

i was talking to a dear faithful & beloved friend who surprised me with a very unexpected story.

someone who i use to be friends with (she decided not to like me because i don't know why. i may have done something to make her feel that way about me. i don't know) said these few but hurtful things.

1. my life is easy but i don't know it
2. i don't know what pressure is really like
3. i have all the money in the world
4. i get everything i want
5. i'm an attention seeker

actually hor, right now i'm totally rage-less till i don't even remember what she said about me. but i guess those 5 are the main things.

anyway, hearing that at that time caused me to, KABOOM. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM EXPLODEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

but i was too busy those few days to blog about it so i didn't.

okay, thing number 1 i want to clarify.

i wrote that post not to make my friends know how lonely i was -.- i wrote that post for that one specific person to realize that she's wrong.

honestly thinking about it now, why was i so angry in the first place? i have no feeling of rage whatsoever right now. i can't even remember what she said! gosh ! why did i even want to prove her wrong?

anyway, i think the main thing that made me angry was the part where she said

what does j-mee know about pressure?

i guess it made me angry because i was facing one of the most pressuring weeks i've had so far throughout this entire year.

okay, i won't talk about things i was pressured about

but if ever, i were have to have a conversation with you (pointing out whoever is reading this right now) & we had nothing else in the world to talk about

do remind me that i will have to tell you about what was stressing me out, for the sake of preventing awkward silence when we have nothing else to talk about.

if you don't understand what i just said, just leave a comment at the end of the post.

okay i'm pretty much done with whatever i want to say.

NO LONGER ANGRY :) NO LONGER BITTER :) I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

ONLY 2 TESTS NEXT WEEK AND ONLY 3 ASSIGNMENTS NEXT WEEK & YOU'VE COMPLETED 2 OF THEM. THE 3RD ONE IS MEANT TO BE DONE DURING CLASS TIME.

ONLY 1 MORE WEEK TILL I HAVE
ONLY 1 TEST & 1 ASSIGNMENT ONLY
OMG
THINKING ABOUT MY FREEDOM MAKES ME SO EXCITED
WHO KNEW THAT BEING A YEAR 10 WOULD BE SO BUSY?
BUUUUUUUUUUUSY BUSY BUSY.

GAMBATEH J-MEE YOU CAN DO IT ~!

who knew.

2011-03-27T19:59:00.004+08:00

okay, yesterday i wrote that post out of anger & frustration.

i told Sarah i was going to delete it but i've been so busy for the past 2 days (yest and today) i didn't even turn my laptop.

anyway, i don't know why but people actually read my blog (when i actually don't want people to read it, they read it. where are they when i actually post about something i don't mind the whole world knowing about?)

okay, i don't think there's a point in me deleting the post anymore. & i wasn't actually planning on continuing that topic but i guess since people have read it, I should complete the whole story incase there might be some misunderstandings.

oh well, have to complete my last bit of homework. & if i have time i will blog tonight.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

randoms:

out of anger.

2011-03-26T10:51:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.

do feel free to skip this post, it's a rant. i just want ONE specific person to read this. the dear person who inspired me to write this post.

few days ago, someone bad-mouthed me. thank you very much , i appreciate that cos now you give me something to rant about in my blog -.-

anyway this lovely person said.

"wtf does j-mee now about a hard life......"

anyway the person said a lot more but i'll just elaborate on this particular statement now cos i've got limited time.

part 2.
"..... always come back got so much attention from friends and family. what she want also her dad will definitely give her lah. she's always screaming around making noise seeking attention and people are actually stupid enough to fall for her attention seeking".

i have a lot of friends?

do you even know how many nights i spent crying by myself under my blanket because i felt so lonely?
do you know how many meals i had to eat alone?
how many movies i had to watch by myself?
how many classes i had to go to without opening my mouth at all?
do you even know how it feels?
do you know how it feels to get no attention?

well i'm sorry if when i go back home to Malaysia i may seem like an attention seeker to you cos well, I ACTUALLY KINDA AM. I ADMITTED IT, YOU HAPPY?

i've spent so much time being alone so maybe it's nice for me to get some attention when i'm back home. ok?

this one thing i'm sure about.
you have a lot of friends. my friends are constantly praising you. how pretty you are, how popular you are, the different ways different guys would try to kao you.

you get the attention without even trying.

you ask me what do I know about pressure?
i'll ask you.

what do you know about being alone?

maybe you do have lonely times. the same way i have pressuring times too.

but seriously.

what you said about me was very very very very hurtful.
it bothers me alot.

oh, and the part where you said my DAD GIVES ME EVERYTHING I WANT?
go die please.
just think about it before you die cos it's something i want you to reconsider before you die.

TO MY FRIENDS OUT THERE DON'T BE OFFENDED, I'M NOT SAYING THAT YOU GUYS ARE LOUSY FRIENDS.

seriously, it's not your fault. im 4000km away from home, i don't expect everyone's lives to stop just because mine sucks.

i'm alone, i'm lonely, i don't have the kind of friends i use to. it makes me jealous to see my ex classmates being so close to each other because they've been together as a class for years already.

i could've been there. but i wasn't.

will post again when i'm free about the other things this lovely person just had to say about me (if i feel like it).

indian night wheeee.

2011-03-23T18:43:00.007+08:00

SHALL OPEN THE POST WITH...

A PICTURE OF LIBBY! (cos it was the first picture taken)

anyway, few weeks ago, the Boarding House had a dinner for all international students. Most of us went, some didn't. we went for an Indian buffet which was amazing. would say where it is, but i have no idea.
after dinner, we went to Ethiopia (some place with all the asian stuff) and had bubble tea.
*guys were checking Nic & Steph out for the whole night, literally.
then we went to Kingspark to get some pictures but well, we didn't really get to cos..
haha.
funny thing that happened.

while we were taking pictures & laughing our asses off, this group of people started LAUGHING EVEN LOUDER and said, "oooohhh girls" in the mocking way.
so Nic, being the monkey she is, said, "HAHAHAHA HAHAHAHA YOU'RE GAY. ok guys lets RUN!"
unfortunately, everyone ignored her. anyway, a minute later, that group of people started coming back & were calling out to us, saying, "HEY TAKE A PICTURE WITH US".
& J-mee, being the blur J-mee she is, freaked out & said, "AHHHH RUNNN" *starts sprinting back to the bus*
okay & i'm sorry to say this but, my leadership skills were just to good. everyone started running back to the bus.

5 minutes later, everyone scolded me saying that our soulmates could've possibly been there but we'll never know since "I" made them run away ._.

okay, nonsense over.

goodbye! enjoy the pictures.

sorry, couldn't resist. as you know, i never fail to have a strong urgency to post spastic shots of myself.

quarreling on what's more fattening, as usual.
HAHAHAHA.

Nic & her spoon.

group shot.

not skinny enough?

my ex-roommate, Azarya.

Pict of the day.

Sarah, Nic & Azarya.

getting ready to do a jump shot

failed attempt on a jump shot.

2011-03-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone.
2 assignments handed in.
2 completed
my media (at the moment) is going well THANK GOD.
left math (which I will do over the weekend with Sarah) and music (all notes done, just needa put it all together).

econs test on thursday
science test on friday.
math test the next wednesday
english test on the next thursday

& i guess all my stress is over by then, hallelujah.

Needa praise the Lord for keeping me sane throughout all this.

ONLY 1 WEEK AND A HALF LEFT J-MEE, HANG IN THERE. YOU CAN DO IT! GAMBATEHHHHHH.

media, you're making my life hard.

2011-03-21T18:40:00.003+08:00

honestly, i don't think 7 assignments is that bad. i'm managing all of them pretty well. except for one.

one so revolting, so dreadful, something i LOATHE.

media studies.

i don't hate media studies, i find it fun. it's the assignments that KILL.

i really, really, really REALLY don't know what to do. how am i gonna survive this assignment?

do you know why it's the assignment i detest the most? (sorry i've been having to use the words loathe and detest alot on my essays lately).

it's because it's an assignment where i have to depend on other people.

it's not individual. i need actors to act in my music video.

& unfortunately, all the people that i can think of are so freakin' unrealiable.

DON'T MAKE PROMISES TO ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT GOING TO KEEP THEM
HECK, I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T KEEP THEM
JUST KEEP THOSE THAT WILL MAKE AN IMPACT ON MY RESULTS
ON MY STUDIES
MAYBE YOUR FUTURE DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT EITHER.

BUT I CARE ABOUT MINE.

SO, GO DIE PLEASE.

STOP PISSING ME OFF.

IT'S NOT ABOUT BEING SELFISH. I'M NOT. IT'S JUST THAT I CARE ABOUT WHERE I'M GOING WITH MY LIFE.
I DON'T WANT TO BE A LOSER LIKE YOU WHO IS IRRESPONSIBLE, UNRELIABLE, & DESTINED TO

i was going to say FAIL but i wont. at least not out loud.

i don't mind not doing WELL for media, i don't want to do anything with a media-related career when i grow up.

it's just that i don't want my report to be bloody destroyed with a SHIT MARK ON IT.

SO YES, GO DIE.
I'M ANGRY
&
I'M STUCK
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

kill me please.

do you know how frustrating it is? for me to think about YOU ALL all day & night.

hoping & praying so hard that you wont fongfeikei (or however you spell that word).
are you reliable?
do any of you even care?

we have to get this done, by sunday. & don't forget the things we have to do before sunday. we have to get those things done by wednesday. things like props, permission for me to get out of the boarding house, loaning a video cam.

GO DIE PLEASE.

OR
OR
A BETTER OPTION

DO YOUR BLOODY JOB. WHICH IS TO BE A RELIABLE & GOOD-WILLED PERSON WHO DOESN'T DRAG PEOPLE DOWN INTO THE ROAD TO FAILURE JUST BECAUSE THAT'S THE PATH YOU'RE ON RIGHT NOW.

(just realized how "bloody job" looks like something else. hope you didn't get shocked).

Fantabulous.

2011-03-20T13:25:00.004+08:00

I made that update earlier i really quick because I thought that it was time to start working.

But... i just realized that i still have 4 minutes before I actually do have to start working.

so anyway, i'm gonna post up about my latest ambition.

no, it's not to be McDreamy.

but to be a surgeon *GASPS* (yes, i found motivation from watching GREY'S ANATOMY AHAHAHA)
although they don't actually have lives/get any sleep.

i took 45 minutes to clear up my room & make it SUPER NEAT & ORGANIZED, HAHAHAHAHA.

oh shits, it's already 1.31pm. supposed to have started my work a minute ago.

SO SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T UPDATED ANY DECENT UPDATES RECENTLY. GOODBYE READERS.

DR. CHONG (cough). i feel smarter already just by hearing that name.

hello stress wave.

2011-03-20T13:20:00.002+08:00

Exactly one week ago, i was cracking my brain open trying of something productive to do.
Right now, i'm trying to keep my brain together from falling apart from all the "cracking". Not because I was thinking of something to do, but because i was thinking about what i should do about the thing i had to do.

7 assignments within 2 weeks
5 tests within the next 4 weeks.

then home.

i can't wait.

am i pushing it?

2011-03-19T22:35:00.003+08:00

my body is failing me.

blur eyesight
sore hands
sore shoulders
feverish feeling
sweaty palms
sore legs
sore tighs
extra cold feet (i think it's just because of the aircon)
back ache
my right hand is especially painful because of volleyball
my neck hurts too.

BODY, THIS IS THE WRONG TIME TO BE FAILING ME. I'M BUSY & I NEED TO GET WORK DONE. UGH.

this picture is so irrelevant but i couldn't resist.

LAYOUTTTT RAWR.

2011-03-18T20:27:00.001+08:00

NATALIECHOONG JUST MADE MY DAY.

FIRST SHE SKYPED WITH ME
THEN SHE OFFERED TO HELP ME OUT WITH MY LAYOUT
NATTTT I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX !

SO YES, THIS LAYOUT IS NOT THE UGLY ONE I WAS TALKING ABOUT IN THE PREVIOUS POST.

LAYOUT.

2011-03-18T20:02:00.003+08:00

DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LAYOUT.
DON'T COMMENT ON HOW UGLY IT IS.

I DON'T KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG.

JUST LET IT GO DAI K. THANKS.

perspective.

2011-03-16T18:40:00.002+08:00

it's funny how unstable i am.

first, i could LOATHE someone to the core because of the way they hold themselves. maybe they're rude, or inconsiderate, or whatever. i don't know them in person, & yet I judge them already.

OR, it could be someone i know.
i don't like them because of the way they treat me, talk to me, talk to others, or maybe even because of the way they look.

but recently, i've been finding myself liking more and more people just because of the little things they do to make me change the way i look at them.

eg:

hold the door open for me & let me walk pass first & give a sweet smile
picking up my stuff when they drop even though i tell them not to
keeping quiet when they know i need to concentrate without me telling them to
just giving me a nice smile when they walk by & showing that there is some decency in them

i know! it's so weird.
gah, j-mee you're too judgmental & weird. you're going wackooo.

cheesy giler i beh tahan. (points at picture above)

i hope you're happy.

2011-03-15T22:00:00.007+08:00

I hope you're happy.
Because you forgot to consider that that someone you're sleeping has children.
AND A HUSBAND.
I hope you're happy.
Because a marriage is going to fail & a family might be broken
and it's all because of you.
I hope you're happy.
obviously, I DON'T.
I don't hope & neither do I wish for your happiness.
WHY SHOULD I BE HAPPY FOR SOMEONE WHO'S SCREWING SOMEONE WHO'S MARRIED TO SOMEONE ELSE?
i know, there's always two sides to a story, but i can't help but be angry.

no, i'm not talking about my family.

this incident happened for a reason.

2011-03-14T18:45:00.004+08:00

we learn new things everyday. today, i learned that i should not talk back when someone says nasty things to me. i said something nasty to her yesterday, & all she did was say "yes, you're right and i'm sorry".
that cooled me down instantly & i no longer felt that rage that had been boiling up in me all this while.
even though she did one small thing, (which was to say that i was a bitch with my own twitter account) it somehow triggered my anger.
probably because she was younger than me & i felt like i had the authority to do something about what she said.
i use to think that this happening was for her to learn & not to repeat what she did.
but now, i think that this happened so that i would learn from her.
i don't know. oh well, God works in mysterious ways.

conclusion; never talk back & admit your wrong, j-mee. you'd probably get yourself into deep shit if you don't humble yourself.

homework, assignments.

2011-03-14T18:38:00.008+08:00

oh just as i thought i was gonna be free this week.

3 assignments just attacked me today, not to mention homework.
2 tests next week and an oral presentation, & i have to give up my next 2-3 saturdays to start videoing for my Music Video assignment. gah. it's time to kiss my relaxtime goodbye.

oh well, not that it bothers me or anything. i usually get cranky & crazy when i'm bored (this statement is proven in the previous post, yes i was really bored when i posted that post).
so it is better for me to be worrying about my studies than have an idle mind.

okay, time to start studying.

bye peoplessssssssssssss.

humans ugh.

2011-03-13T21:49:00.001+08:00

I'M SO ANGRY.
or am i?

HUMANS, RAWR. why do i have to be one of THEM?

humans = feelings
feelings = controversy
controversy = heartbreak
heartbreak = UNHAPPINESS.

FEELINGS. WHY DO WE HAVE THEM?

yes, without them the world would be BORING and ROUTINED. but if we were happy all the time, it's not like we would even REALIZE how boring & routined our lives are.

i'm angry. no wait, I DON'T KNOW.

I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW.

there's SO MANY feelings. and sometimes, there's TOO MANY FEELINGS TO BE FELT until my dear little brain doesn't have the capacity that's large enough to contain all these different kinds of feelings.

am i happy? am i angry? am i sad? am i excited? am i frustrated? am i homesick? am i in love? am i jealous? am i nervous? am i confused?

WHAT AM I?

HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL RIGHT NOW.

I FEEL HAPPY, BUT I FEEL SAD TOO.

I'M HAPPY THAT I HAVE A RELAXING WEEK AHEAD.
I'M SAD BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET A PLEASANT DINNER TODAY (not really the reason but i'm sad anyways)

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL.

FEELINGS ARE SO CONTRADICTING AND YET THEY'RE SO REAL.

MY BRAIN TELLS ME THAT I NEED TO GO ON A DIET BUT MY BODY TELLS ME TO EAT.
MY MIND TELLS ME THAT I'M JEALOUS BUT MY HEART DOESN'T FEEL THAT WAY.
MY HEART TELLS ME THAT I'M GETTING A GREAT EDUCATION HERE BUT THE OTHER SIDE OF MY HEART TELLS ME THAT I HATE IT HERE.

WHAT DO I FEEL? I DON'T KNOW.

i'm pretty sure this happens to other people too -.- mixed feelings. gah. how terrifying.

oh suddenly i feel happy now, hahaha idk why. i think it's because i started to listen to sungha jung songs. seriously, i was so emo just now. & now i'm so happy.

OMG PMSING MUCH.

BAI EVERYONE :D IM HAPPY NOW.

layout argh.

2011-03-13T12:04:00.004+08:00

something's wrong with my google account.

i tried a few different computers from my school & none of them can get this stupid layout thing to work. i tried creating a new blog, it doesn't work either.

what to do, what to do?

it's not that i have a problem with my blog layout. it just frustrates me that i can't make any changes to it, & what if i wanted to change something, or remove something next time? it kills me to know that i can't do anything about it.

well of course i can export all my posts & import them into a new blog. gah lazy la.

i'll do that during my holidays, so if i don't like you or something, it's not because i'm lazy. it's because i can't, huge difference.

okay enough for the layout thingo.

i've been meaning to post about this a few weeks ago but kept forgetting too. ahh it's so epic I don't even know how it's possible for me to forget to talk about it.

notice the 2nd tweet on that page, "jmeechong: i'm a bitch"

whatthecrap??

for those who saw it and wondered why i said that, let me make it clear first. I didn't say it. some toot had my twitter on her phone (cos i stupidly forgot to logout) and decided to call me a bitch thinking that i wouldn't find out who she is.

anyway, i just realized that i shouldn't tell the story publicly ._. so if you are that interested, you could always ask me & i'll tell you the story over a cup of tea.

okay, i'm gonna stop any minute now.

just wanted to make a quick announcement.

i really wanna thank God, for not only helping me throughout the past few weeks of my "stress" (if you read my blog before this you would've seen my 8 paragraph rant on how frustrated i was ._.)

aside from helping me calm down, He blessed me with good marks too! : )
so yes, GLORY TO GOD WHEEEEEEEE.

HOPE YOU GUYS HAD A GREAT WEEK AND A LOVELY WEEKEND :D

MY WEEKEND. WILL TRY TO GET A CLEARER PICT ASAP :D
(i'll post about it as soon as I get the picts from nic! tsk tsk such an efficient blogger)

BAIIIII.

OH AND GUESS WHAT?

AUTUMN'S HERE.

blog layout.

2011-03-10T18:42:00.002+08:00

something is either terribly wrong with my account, or something is is wrong with my connection. or maybe even my laptop

since a few months ago, i couldn't change my blog layout, both in the boarding house and when im back in malaysia.

now when i try to link people, i can't . idk why, it just doesn't register.

OK, I SHALL GO TO THE IT CENTER TOMORROW TO LINK ALL THESE PEOPLE.

AND HOPEFULLY WILL BE ABLE TO CHANGE MY LAYOUT.

HAVE A GOOD DAY EVERYONE.

is she still in rehab?

2011-03-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

(actually, i don't see why the selena gomez's one is funny)

and best for the last...

life and thoughts this week.

2011-03-09T20:10:00.005+08:00

to update people on my life. (sorry for grammatical errors but im too lazy to check how it should properly be said)

to update people on my life.

gosh i haven't written in my diary since the week i started school. time flies so fast. i barely have time to even THINK about writing in my diary.

we're halfway through week 6, only 4 & a half weeks till i'm back home again. i seriously can't wait.
so many plans

spending time with my family
teaching my brother new things
celebrating my birthday
getting presents
giving presents
taking pretty pictures
going to seafield for interact club
going jogging with friends
crashing other schools to see other friends
relax from all my homework
watch as many movies as i can
sleep late
wake up early
have only 4 hours of sleep each night
play FUTSAL OMG SO EXCITED RAWRRAWRRWARRRRRRR
re-learn guitar
hopefully play the bass (OMG I PLAYED A BASS LAST SAT AHAAHAHAHA BELIEVE IT OR NOT, & IT DIDN'T SOUND HORRIBLE! I JUST FOUND OUT THE POSITIONING IS THE SAME AS VIOLIN! JUST THAT THE STRINGS ARE REVERSED!
take more pictures

remind me to ask kay to help me buy polaroid film before i come home, cos J-Anne left her polaroid cam back home & it's filmles, & i wanna take heaps of pictures. gonna use my angpau money to buy them.

gonna have a math test on friday, oral presentation on monday, wah. my life is so happening with such exciting things right ._. (i'm sorry if you didn't sense any sarcasm in that statement cos you were supposed to).

okay, i've gotta go now. prepare my speech.

stress.

2011-03-07T22:06:00.003+08:00

okay holidays are over. currently having another stress wave.

math test on wednesday. doing the practice worksheets now & i can't seem to be getting anything.

!@#$%

look at my eyes.

(beware i look emo cos i pretty much am emo right now & if i smile, you can't see my swollen + tired eyes)

(they are actually very swollen but it doesn't look as bad in the picture).

math has officially sucked out the brightness from my life ._.

few events.

2011-03-06T23:30:00.006+08:00

hello.
will upload loads of picts.

enjoy!

Natalie Choong (click,read please thanks):

nat says I look like dai kar jie here HAHAHAHA.

randomness:

my new blanket:

sleepover with kay, but we took lots of individual picts:

notice how my ipod is black & my phone cover is white while her phone cover is black while her ipod cover is white. COOL RIGHT :D

& last but not least...

a pict that Kay & me agreed on keeping even though we hated how we looked just because of the dog.
if you get it, HAHAHAHA. & if you don't, you're slowwwwww.

(the dog was coincidentally there ._.)

good night everyone!

OMAIGOSH.

2011-03-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

OHHHHHHHH SHITESSSSSSSSSSSS.

why am i so ridiculous?
gah.

you know now sometimes, there's just times when you say things, & you don't know why you say them?

and finally after everything is over, you realize how stupid what you said was?

i'm so stupid.

long.

2011-03-04T22:18:00.005+08:00

on the contrary to my previous post, i shall do a long post.
(this first sentence already sounds weird, sorry if i made any grammatical errors)

anyway, the past week and a half has been really stressful.

media presentation
science assignment
science test
math assignment
math test
econs test
english essay
music assignment
music performances
music practices for the performances
trying to keep up with a healthy lifestyle by jogging at least 5 times a week
keeping up my with my own music practices for my exams (meaning that it's not for my orchestras/anything involved with school)
keeping up with the truckloads of homework and study notes

thank God i'm managing very well. Got back 4 of my exam results, did reasonably well for everything so far. got 1 A+, 1A, 1 B+ and 1 B.

anyway, i actually forgot what i wanted to post about. so i guess i'll stop here.
sorryyyyyyyyy. will update again when i think of something :O

that's all from me for now everyone. byeeeeeeeeeee.

EDIT:

ZOMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT
OKAY, I WAS JUST REMINDED
OF SOMEONE
WHO CONTRIBUTED
TO MY JOURNEY TO SUCCESS (WHAHAHAHA WTH)

HIS NAME IS

RYAN FOONG KAM WAHHHHHHHHHHH.

SORRY DUDE, I DON'T HVE A PICTURE OF YOU.

BUT SERIOUSLY, THIS GUY IM TALKING ABOUT
HE SAVED MY LIFE

HE HELPED ME, J-MEE CHONG, GET DOWNLOAD THE MUSIC VIDEO FOR MY ASSIGNMENT, & SENT IT TO ME.

WITHOUT HIM, I WOULD'VE JUST DIED.

SO YES, RYAN THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU'RE A LIFEEEE SAVERRRRRRRR, YOU SHOULD SO WORK AT THE BEACH & SAVE PEOPLE WHO NEED LIFE SAVING (wth i'm getting weird)

okay i've gotta go now, BYE.

TO THOSE WHO KNOW RYAN, DO GIVE HIM A PAT ON THE BACK & TELL HIM, WEL DONE THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HIM
HAHAHAHA

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE

THANKS AGAIN RYAN !

short.

2011-03-04T03:24:00.001+08:00

supposed to do a proper update but I ended up spending over 20 minutes writing KahMun a FB message.
gosh i miss my malaysian friends.

okay gonna go sleep now, gotta wake up in 3.5 hours.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. will update ASAP!

*i have heaps of homework to complete T_T*

YES my holiday is officially ruined & overthrown by the evil forces of SCHOOLWORK!
(HAHAHAH omg i just realized how pathetic that sounded)

media assignment, whee -.-

2011-02-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

hi everyone, sorry this is gonna be a ranting post.

feeling emo today.

i had two tests, math and econs. i guess they both went pretty well, and i did study quite a bit for both of them. stayed up extra late last night to study, i guess it was worth it.
hopefully, i understood the questions the way they should've been understood.

ok, that's part one. when i was still happy.

part two comes along now.

was gonna go for a jog, till Sarah told me she was watching friends. I pulled myself up to my feet with all the willpower i had & walked out of her room, still keeping myself focused on going for a jog.
then, i remembered that i left my phone at Libby's room, & i wanted to get it. Then I went into her room, and guess what?

she was watching Friends, Season 8. the season i haven't watched yet. J-Mee lost hold of her will power, kicked off her shoes & watched friends.

so part two ends here, j-mee not going for a jog.

part three.

went for dinner & felt lethargic. didn't feel like eating, but ate anyway. had so much beef that i thought i was gonna become a cow myself.

so anyway, decided to start studying. studied for about an hour & felt quite useless not being able to do physics. Well i have a test tomorrow, & i just found out tonight that i didn't know it as well as i thought I did.

ok but at that point of time, i wasn't feeling very lousy yet.

Until at about 7.45pm, Rachel tells me that she's really stressed out as well & after this she still has a media assignment too.

ohh ohhh and you know whaaaaaaaaat?????

i'm in that media class too! wheee. which means that i've got to complete the assignment too.

THANK GOD for her, if it weren't for her, i would've went straight into class not knowing what i was up for.

anyway, the assignment is due on monday, how delightful. I'm FORCED to go to Metricup this Sat from 9am till Sunday 1.30pm for the music performance.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. which means that i would have LESS TIME to finish my assignment.

the things that are stressing me out are:

1. i don't even have the music video i have to write about yet (i thought it was due after midterm holidays, and i was planning to download the video from youtube when i was out of the boarding house as my school has blocked YOUTUBE.) but it's due in 4 days.
2. it has to be made up of AT LEAST 800-1000 words that make up a bloody good & logical essay. i'll probably just write two sentences & drop dead on my floor straight after.
3. i can't do last minute stuff, i NEED to do my things in advanced. i need to be able to relax and do things at my own slow pace.

WELL IF YOU'RE SAYING THAT

1.i'm being to petty cos 800 words is NOT ALOT
or
2. i shouldn't be complaining & i should be learning how to deal with stress.

WELL SORRY IF I CAN'T SATISFY EVERYONE IN THE WORLD
(wth i just realized that i'm scolding imaginary people)

ahhhhhhhh.

WELL IF THOSE IMAGINARY PEOPLE REALLY ARE READING THIS, LET ME TELL YOU.

THIS IS HOW I DEAL WITH STRESS.

INCASE YOU DIDN'T REALIZE, I COMPLAIN, ALOT. ESPECIALLY ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THE WORK I HAVE TO DO.

BUT INCASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW (YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T COS I DON'T GO AROUND TELLING THE WORLD)

I DO A PRETTY DARN WELL JOB OKAY. AFTER ALL THESE RANTS & OCCASIONAL TEARS.

BECAUSE WHEN I DO A JOB, I DO IT WELL.

OK
that was a lie.
but the lie applies to only 60% of all the times i do my work.

GOODNIGHT.
I'M NOT GONNA STUDY ANYMORE. I'M GONNA WASH UP, CRAWL INTO BED, MAYBE TWEET FOR A LITTLE WHILE, THEN TRY TO SLEEP.

I'M GONNA GO IN MY TEST TOMORROW, AND FACE IT LIKE THE WAY I SHOULD.
I WILL NOT CRY, IF I FAIL. I WILL NOT CRY, IF I DON'T GET AN A.

I WILL NOT BREAK DOWN, I WILL NOT STARVE MYSELF (if that's even possible), AND I WILL NOT HIT ANYONE.

I AM GONNA FINISH THIS POST AS A CHANGEEEDD AND BRIGHT YOUNG GIRL.

HAVE A DOOG DAY EVERYONE.
i just realized that i spelt GOOD wrongly, but i can't be bothered to change it.

IMGOINGTOTRYTODIMINISHMYCRAZINESSLEVELNOWBAI.
YESIMVERYCRANKY
SORRYIFIFREAKEDANYONEOUT
SORRYIFTHISCHANGESYOULOOKATME
WAIT,WHYSHOULDIBESORRY?
ISHOULDSLEEPNOW

BAI.
thanks for reading, for whoever did.

(omg i'm so sorry.)

i'm a happy, happy child.

2011-02-21T21:28:00.006+08:00

sorry for the past few posts, totally meaningless & full of complaints.
hence, i shall make it up with this post.

instead of complaints, i shall promote !

I shall talk about the second best creation IN THE WORLD!

for those who have been reading my blog continuously for about 10 months (at least), they would recall me saying that indo mie was the best creation on earth ever created by mankind.

(i can already smell the indo mie just by looking at this picture. hohoho the power of j-mee's photography)

anyway, yes. the second best is...

webcammmmmmmmmm !
(sorry i tried getting the picture without the reflection of my phone camera but i couldn't. j-mee's photography, not so great after all ._.)

gosh .
oh SKYPE is great too btw. seriously, it makes life a much happier place to live in. You can chat on it without lagging like the way you lag on facebook, the webcam is clearer on skype than it is on msn, and other things i can't actually think about at the moment ._.
oh & i just thought of the best thing about it, it's the ONLY social website that is NOT BLOCKED in my school. *gasps*

it's only disadvantage is...

NO ONE USES IT !

gosh, people. START CREATING SKYPE. then you can see my face everyday wheeeeeeeeeeee, hahahahahaha.

anyway, this post is mainly for me to announce to all the blog readers that THEY (YOU) SHOULD CREATE SKYPE, SO I CAN CHAT WITH YOU.

MAYBE, you guys are living perfectly well with my absense, but honestly, i'm missing home & i want to talk to YOU! (points to whoever is reading this)

SO AGAIN I SAY, PLEASE MAKE USE OF THE SECOND BEST CREATION ON EARTH. IF NOT, IT WOULD BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED & NEVER ACKNOWLEDGED & wouldn't that just be a waste? D:
OKAY GO CREATE SKYPE NOW.

Please don't use the excuses:

1. i don't have a webcam
2. my speakers are spoilt

because incase you didn't know, it's not actually necessary for you to make a video call/call on skype. you can just chat! like msn (again i say).
so GO CREATE SKYPE THE MOMENT YOU FINISH READING THIS POST. IT ONLY TAKES 2 MINUTES TO SIGN UP & DOWNLOAD IT.

here, i made life easier for you by getting the link for you.
http://www.skype.com/intl/en/home

my skype is xjmeeeee . if you're someone i don't know & you add me, obviously i'm gonna reject you.

GODOITNOWPLEASENOPROCRASTINATIONSBAIIIIII.

mum is roll her eyes by the time she finished reading this post & say "JMEE STOP BEING SO IMMATURE".

2011-02-19T19:47:00.004+08:00

seeing the way we get along so well even after not talking to each other for so long, i can easily understand why we were best friends in the first place.

when i first came to Australia, i felt so lonely, so forgotten.

only 7 people bothered to email me, 2 people in the entire year bothered to text me, no one skyped me.

in that group of 5 people, three of them were family, two people did it because they took it as their "job" to ask me how i was doing, one person gave me a shopping list (that one was super ouch) and the last one was a sincere one.
(sorry janne i forgot to include you in here, but that's okay cos i know you'd love me anyways :D)

2 people who texted me, well it was great. honestly, getting texts from those two people felt like the most sincere thing that could ever be received, until i realized that one was trying to get something from me (another shopping list) and the other stopped texting me the moment i said that it costed 50 sens to text me (the person sent me a fb message to tell me so -.-)

no one, besides my parents skyped me ._.

anyway, that was my life in 2010. i don't know why, we're already halfway through the second month of 2011 & i'm talking about my life a year ago. it hasn't actually changed much tho.

shit, i really do have to start doing something productive before i just rot here & die & think about everything that makes me sad.

"an idle mind is a devil's workshop".

hence, i shall take a shower now & start doing my assignments, or maybe even watch a movie. (shit, physics is due on Monday).

shitshitshitshitshit

pooooooooooooooooooooop.

goodbye.

during summer, love is in the air, LITERALLY.

2011-02-19T18:57:00.005+08:00

i saw two dragonflies mating a few days ago while i was jogging ._. actually, i'm not sure if they were mating or not. either that or they were killing each other, i dunno.

so yes, LOVE is literally in the AIR, geddit geddit? HAHAHAHAHA. (yes i'm laughing at my own constructed joke which isn't even funny)

i bought this today!

it's pretty, no?

well i think it is :O
unfortunately, it's not mine to keep. oh well.

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i'm feeling quite lonely at the moment. lydia, steph, sarah & rachel are out watching movies. Libby is sleeping, & Krys is too busy watching SuperJunior stuff.

SO LONELYYYYYYYYY. i actually feel like crying out of frustration now because i have a physics assignmen due on Monday and a Math assignment due on Thursday, oh & let's not forget that there's an assignment check as well (a test).

i'm sorry, i'm starting to rant about my life again.

OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I SHALL GO DO HAPPIER STUFF ! :) LIKE JUMP UP & DOWN 10 TIMES EVERY 2 MINUTES TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL LESS BLOATED! (i had loads of pasta for dinner today + half a hugee packet of doritos).

I SHALLLLLLLLLLLLLL. go take a shower now.

BYE.

*I'd actually kiss the feet of the people who read this entire post*

i like to blog. & take pictures with my lousy internal webcam.

2011-02-18T19:57:00.010+08:00

wheee. ego mania timeeeee.

i know, i know. i've downgraded my standards alot. well i don't actually have a camera with me at the moment (besides my phone but i think it's even worse than my webcam) so it's not my fault that you'll be seeing blurry-grainy pictures from now onwards.

okay, be prepared to witness the self-centered/shiok sendiri-ness of a teenage girl by posting up pictures of herself! :D:D:D

funny story about how the next picture came about.

last week when I was talking to Sarah, she told us that crooked smiles are caused because we chew our food on different sides of out mouth. so if we chewed on both sides of our mouth, our muscles would be equally strong. hence, our smiles will be symmetrical. I didn't know if she was right or not, but i found it quite logical.
so, for the past 5 days, i've started chewing on the left side of my mouth and this picture on the below is the results.

yes, there's no difference, HAHAHAHAHA. i don't know whether it's because it doesn't work or because it's only been five days.
this afternoon when i was smiling in the mirror (don't ask why) i thought my smile had became straighter. HAHA. so yes, i took this picture and realized that my smile wasn't as straight as my imagination ._.

conclusion; j-mee isn't very smart, and she's easily convinced to see what she believes in even if it isn't there (if you get what i mean, & honestly i don't think you get me).

trying(& unfortunately failing to smile with my lips being straight.

i actually like the way i look like with my sepet eyes (yes my eyes are open there HAHA)

i'm not used to seeing myself without my glasses anymore.

oh wait, the picture galore isn't over yet.

wait for it...

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HAHAHAHAHA; okay i think i just made people think that i'm super weird or something.

BAIIIIII.
i should be doing something wayy more productive ( i was supposed to start doing my econs homework 30 minutes ago! i still have a math & physics assg, & an english essay test to prepare for and a music test AH!!!)

oh trust me there's wayy more than just what i've mentioned at the above.

i don't like the song but i find the lyrics cute.

2011-02-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

Perfect Two-Auburn

[Verse 1:]
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

[Verse 2:]
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

[Bridge:]
You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

[B-Sec 1/2:]
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

St Valentine's Part 2.

2011-02-15T17:22:00.001+08:00

hello everyone. as promised, i actually got my butt down to do anoter V Day post cos the other one was done out of frustration and "Agonyyyy" (my favourite word).

anyway, how was V Day for everyone? see what I got :D

yes, from the boarding house. it's actually quite pretty.

& aside from that, i got a lovely pink post-it note from Libby, haha.

so yes, that's all about my V day.

okay i guess this isn't gonna be a proper V Day post either, cos I honestly ahve no idea what there is to talk about in a V Day post. so...

sorry to be a disappointment, AGAIN.

goodbye <3

conversation.

2011-02-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

A: oh oh oh i liked this guy at first sight.
A: i still like him now though. It's beeen like one year plus? HAHAHA.
A: So proud of myself.
J: HAHAHAHAHAHAH
J: is he real??
A : Man, you just stabbed a knife in my heart. He's donghae.
A : the only reason why i must go to ss3.
J: hahaahhahaahhaa
J: sorrryyy.
J: can i have my knife back please? i think i should stab myself too to bring myself back to reality.

i will attempt on making another V DAY post later (a more interesting one). MAYBE, not 100% sure yet.

2011-02-14T20:37:00.003+08:00

oh gosh it's valentine's day. but the chaplin in my school call it St Valentine's. it sounds nicer as St. Valentine's, even though it's probably the name of someone who's already dead.

okay i would search up the history, but i think that it would scare away people cos they would run away the moment they saw the massive amount of words.

oh i'm skyping with JuinYi now by the way, (this is hinting to all who did not skype me ._.)

okay so how was valentine's day for everyone?
i got oneeeeeee thing, & guess who it's from?

THE BOARDING HOUSE.

abit sad, i know. but wait, i got a note too, from Libby. haha. that's about it. such a sad & lonely valentines. being valentine-less for two consecutive years.
but at least my V day today is more happening than last year, i don't think I even realized it was V day that year -.-

anyway, hope everyone had a nice V day. wishing all the happy couples out there a happy future & for all those singles out there who need more love, try harder next time ._.

okay byeeeee.

this is a "no-meaning" post ._. did it out of boredom.

2011-02-13T02:02:00.001+08:00

wheeeeeee smiling is good for health.

guhhhh my i've used up all my internet usage so i'm using Libby's account. currently in Libby's room. We watched Sorority Row about 30 minutes ago. She's been talking to her boyf ever since. We were supposed to be watching another movie, but i guess not. Anyways, i'm talking to apple now. ooh.

okay i should blog about something more interesting.
i shall talk about my weekend !

was supposed to watch a movie with Libby last night, but she fell asleep by like 10pm ._. so early.

so I went to Krys' room & skyped with Connie for abit. Then I went back to my room and started to watch my movie & eat my mango. Halfway, JJ came on skype so we skyped for about an hour while i was still eating my mango ._. (thinking about it now just made me realize that i must've looked super pathetic while eating my mango :O)
OOOOHHHHHHH i got to see fireworks :D how AWESOME was that. (next to JJ was the window & i could see the fireworks from there).

okay so on saturday, i went shoppinggggg. bought new flipflops to replace my 2 year old ones who broke during orchestra practice.

it only costed $7! (which is about RM21).

time to throw this one out.

anyway the rest of my day was spent in Libby's room or the bathroom. wrote in my diary which i haven't opened in over 3 months & wrote 4 pages with super neat handwritting, correct spelling & proper grammar (not 100% correct but i put a 100% effort in writing it). oh, i nearly forgot to mention that i haven't finised writing all i want to inside yet. still about a page or two to write.

my english is getting a wee bit weird now, i'm quite tired. but i don't dare to go into my room cos Nicole said that she saw a cockroach somewhere out the hallway =/

okay it's time for me to go to bed. goodnight. sorry for writing this post, i just had to post as Libby is sooooo busily talking to her lovey.

goodnight peopleeeeeeeessssss.

at least out loud, i won't say i'm in... love.

2011-02-11T21:26:00.002+08:00

(incase someone who doesn't normally read my blog, please understand that this post has nothing to do with the previous post.)

[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

[Muses:] Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

[Meg:]
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

[Meg:]
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

[Muses:]
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

[Meg:]
WRONG: No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

[Meg:]
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

[Muses:]
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

[Meg:]
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

[Muses:]
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

[Meg:]
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love

OMG VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING AND I'M GONNA BE VALENTINE-LESS TWO YEARS IN A ROW! THANKS AUSTRALIA ._.

NATALIE IF YOU'RE READING THIS, COME ON SKYPE AT 6.30PM OR WHENEVER BEFORE 10PM ON MONDAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. YOU'RE MEANT TO BE MY VALENTINE!

GOSH i miss you.

imy.

2011-02-11T20:27:00.002+08:00

i never knew that it was actually possible for me to miss a friend this much.
i'm sorry everyone, but after doing greatly at one of my resolutions (which was to not talk about my emotions in my blog) i have to fail everyone & pour out my heart and soul (jokes, i won't. well at least not ALL of it).

i never knew that i was actually possible for me to miss a friend this much, i repeat.

when she first left, i instantly felt her presence gone. as busy i was during exams, all the way till i was so idle minded after the exams, it never felt any easier to see her room empty whenever i had to walk pass it.
even though i've known her for only 2 short terms, being friends with her was as easy as it could be. considering the fact that she's nice to anyone and everyone.
i miss her so much, gah.

seeing Lynette visiting Libby today made me feel... jealous. & sad.

(fyi, lynette & libby are close friends, but lynette graduated already).

they were screaming, giggling, watching a movie together while snuggling under the quilt. i don't have that kind of friend anymore.
i miss those times Cons, i really do.

for a moment i thought that you'd stopped reading my blog. so just now when i saw that i had a view from GC, i couldn't help but smile at the thought that maybe that view was from you.

gosh im so cheesy. that's okay.
as i've said before,

some people can't take cheesy talk because they don't have enough love in their life. they don't have that special thing or person to make them become cheesy.

i use to think that cheesy-ness was only acceptable with a boy-girl relationship. i guess i now understand how girls can get so cheeeeesy with each other :)

gosh I'M NOT LESBIAN, HAHAHAHAHA. i'm just a lovely fourteen year old girl who misses her bestfriend (A)

okay i'm gonna finish up my last bit of homework now.

add oil add oil...

2011-02-10T20:51:00.007+08:00

okay year 10 was going pretty well at first.
until now.

actually the work hasn't started to get hard yet, it's just that they PLOPPED (if that's a word & if i'm using it right) truckloads of homework right onto my head (honestly i wasn't prepared at all because there was no homework yesterday & i spent my study time watching HIMYM ._.)

school's not being nice to me, i can't even upload pictures onto photobucket because of either...

A) there's some social connection to it so it had to be blocked.
B) the internet connection is super sucky.
C) they're trying to sabotage my blogging life cos it's the only life i had in australia (yes this sounds realllly mature jmee ._.)

okay BAI. i just wanted to make a quick update cos my blogviews are dying again.

KayKayChooooong.

2011-02-05T06:23:00.006+08:00

happy birthday monkay!

honestly, im quite sad to say that i don't actually have many pictures of us/you to post up cos most of our old pictures are gone somewhere in one of my thumbdrives! ah sorry. i'll get them back one day.

anyway, it's been centuries since i last posted a birthday post. But i guess yours is an exception cos you're OUT OF YOUR TEENS ! @_@

okay, maybe i shouldn't have revealed your age, but Anton's worse, he said the age directly out loud !

*sorry i've started to stray from the topic*

Kay, it really doesn't matter whether you're reading this post or not (but it'd be great if you did)
i'm pretty sure you know how much you mean to me.

the sleepovers, the shopping, the time we spend together, gosh as cheesy as this may sound, i love her to the max!

she's been soo sooooo awesome, yes, awesome. so awesome that i'm gonna cry & cry when she leaves for london =/

who am i gonna gossip & bitch with now since J-Anne is gone as well?
who am i gonna exchange looks with when we an inside joke reveals itself?

she can tell whether i like someone or not even if it's the first time i met them.
our taste in EVERYTHING, from clothes & accessories all the way to tumblr layouts CLASH so constantly.
we can understand what we're talking about just by staring into each others eyes.
it's scary how sometimes Kay seems to be my long lost sister.

kay kay, im gonna miss her.
okay this is getting wayyy to corny & sloppy (?)

so,

happy birthday :D
see you soon, maybe tomorrow? :O

byeeeeeeeeeeee i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

oh wait,

kay bought that for me, infront of me. it's nice, no?

okay this is what it's meant to be.

headband

scarf

it's almost 7 in the morning & i haven't slept since 20 hours ago!

goodnighteverybody.

are you jealous of my aweeeeesum friend who bought that scarf for my 14th birthday last week, yes, be jealous.

BAIBAI ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

haircut !

2011-02-02T11:14:00.001+08:00

[draft]
got a haircut.
i haven't combed my hair yet, so ignore how messy it is. posting up the pictures just so you can get a gist of how it looks like.

*weird face*

ooh & on monday, we had a little gathering. 2/3 of the people made it. most of the pictures are in chunken's camera.
had loads of fun screaming at each other while watching Dead Silence, which turned out to be not THAT scary (i've been wanting to watch that show for years but never had the guts to :O)
anyway, i have to thank Paul for his screams (making me feel less chicken), KahMun who i squeezed next to throughout the whole movie & ChunKen for his arm which i think needs to be amputated because of us squeezing it till it turned blue.

we're such happy people!

ohh we tried spiking Paul's hair, but it couldn't. too curly ish.
& we HAD to do something about ChunKen's hair (right kahmun? HAHA. if not "thatvoiceofhis" can't match his adrian-styled hair zomg).

goodbye :D

another sleepover.

2011-02-01T16:11:00.004+08:00

i'm watching My Name Is Khan now, so i'll just be posting pictures from the sleepover I had last week.

cake from KahMun's mum!

twinssssss! :D (people called us twins when we were 10)

swensen!

geetz & sueanne.

geetz trying to sleep.

song of the night; Teenage Dream

apparently, i was "raping" her.

omg caught on camera.

"imma get your heart racin' in my skin tight jeans be a teenage dream tonight!"

sueanne & kahmun

group picture!

team awesome

that's kahmun, not me. it's quite amazing how my glasses can transform someone into ME :O

best friends forever! :O

omg what are you doing to my dog?!

that's all for today! byebye :D

school !

2011-01-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

okay i went to school, again. instead, i borrowed a sport T-shirt from Shanitia (please remind me to give it back to her) & joined the interact GM! yay. Anyway, we went to the playground & played swings for awhile. Oh, & lastly, we jogged around the merentas desa (cross country) route. Me & Suet Theng were struggling since we didn't have proper shoes. (the bottom of our shoe is really thin so stones kept poking us).

okay, done with words.
pictures !

bestfriend.

chunken, me & sueanne.

everybody loves Tiru.

brian !

"there there, don't be sad. here! poke my tummy!"

according to SueAnne's dirty mind, he's playing with something.

Sue Anne.

My very pretty senior.

check out SuetTheng's face! (the one in green)

swing!

alex please don't kill me :O

& another day out with Natalie !

go adidas!

2011-01-25T02:06:00.001+08:00

sleepover.

2011-01-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

had a sleepover last fri-sat at home with Su Ahh, Kay & JuinYi.

slept at 4am+ & woke up at 7am+. madness. & yet we had to play basketball & "pai kum". then I went for a jog. so yes, i slept at 8.45pm & woke up at 9.45 am the next day. awesomeness.

anyway, here's some pictures. unfortunately, i didn't get any pictures with my own sister & JuinYi.

apparently, she's my only friend.

zomg look at Kay's face with her tongue out like that, HAHA.

that's all for now folks. okay i took the time to google a joke for this post. you better like it no matter how lame it may be !

okay i tried googling for a joke but seriously, people can't seem to come up with decent short jokes. therefore, i shall quote a friend from Aussieland!

if Pluto is not counted a planet because it's too small, why are short people counted as people?
(okay somehow the joke seemed funnier when i heard it)

WHATEVER. JUST LAUGH AT IT.

goodnight, it's 1.48am!

reasonable.

2011-01-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

i shall make a new resolution.
the newest & most reasonable one yet.

I should stop ranting about my feelings on my blog, i think i'm scaring people away.

my blog views are decreasing BIGTIME.
okay, so if i don't blog about my feelings, what should i blog about?

after 3 1/2 years.

2011-01-20T21:32:00.004+08:00

see the resemblance?

2011---------------------------------------2007

mental breakdown.

2011-01-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

i wish i could get some sleep
(actually, i usually have 10 hours of sleep a night, but i just felt like typing that on my picture. yes, this is the introduction of how weird this post is gonna get).

no i'm not gonna be retarded, but there's something wrong with me.

number 1.
i started wanting a Blackberry. What in the world is wrong with me? I already have a phone that looks almost the same as the BB. & it's not even the touchscreen/slide one, it's the one that looks like the first blackberry model that pops into your head when someone says "BLACKBERRY!"
whatacrap is wrong with me.

& if you're gonna suggest that it MAY be because of the apps, just to let you guys know, i only use my phone for 3 things.

texting
calling
alarm

and occasionally the camera.

I'M NOT INTO PHONES, I NEVER WAS. I JUST LOVEEEEEEEEEE CHANGING MY PHONES & I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. I don't even remember how many phone's i've had anymore (cos im too lazy to recount)

(just before people think i'm spoilt, no im not THAT rotten. most of those phones are secondhand).

what i mean when I say that I'm not that into phones meaning that I don't use my phone for games, or any other apps. I JUST DONT! okay, apps are for IPODS!

if you buy me an iPhone, yes i'll probably be stuck & addicted to it, tweeting every 5 seconds or maybe even 3. & i'll probably refresh my fb homepage every 10 seconds & reply any comments/messages within miniseconds (sorry i don't know what those are called, you know? those that are even faster than seconds. microseconds? nah i'll stick to miniseconds).

number 2
i'm starting to cheesy talk. yes, cheesy talk.
CHEESY TALK.
if you follow me on twitter, you'd know what i'm talking about (no offense, but mum & dad, please don't create a twitter cos I'll just make my twitter private & not let you guys follow me. not that i don't love you guys, but i don't want my parents stalking me all over the internet. don't worry! i dont say FML on twitter okay ._.)

if you're wondering what's with the FML story, feel free to ask.

anyway, back to the cheesy topic.
I'M GETTING SO CHEESY.

allow me to quote "me".

"cos you showed that you cared at that time. probably also cos of your height & dimples. too bad you dont show that you know I exist anymore."

okay i tried looking for stuff to quote but I got lazy because I did alot of mentions earlier.

anyway, I DONT USUALLY TALK LIKE THIS. DO YOU KNOW WHY?

I DESPISE, no, I LOATHE cheesy talk. it drives me insane. lines like,

"you are miracle" or
"I can't live without you" or
"i'd run a thousand miles just to get a glimpse of you" or

WHATACRAP

CHEESY MUCH.
& if you don't even find that kind of things really cheesy & yet it annoys me sooooo much, imagine HOW MUCH MORE ANNOYED I'D BE AT NORMAL CHEESY STUFF.

speaking of cheesy, doesn't this post really make you feel like eating this?

gosh im craving for pizza now. not to mention,
friend mantao
mcdonalds sundae
honeystars & milk
chocolate milk
indo mee
KFC

the list goes on. I SHOULD GO ON A DIET, RAWR!

okay i'm diverting from the topic again.
so yes, cheesy talk,

CANT TAKE IT.

i don't even like couples calling each other baby, or bu, or bi or whatever! (honey, dear, dar, whatever is fine, just anything that isn't related to baby is fine with me).

okayi'mdonenao.

hope you guys didn't stop reading my blog because of this post as it is utterly disgraceful to the human race (or probably because it's just meaningless rants).

wait, my whole blog is based on meaningless rants. maybe that should be my blog tittle,
"MEANINGLESS RANTS!"
& my link should be,

http://www.meaninglessrants.blogspot.com

actually no, if you stopped reading my blog because this post is so meaningless & rant-ful( if that's a word) you'd have stopped reading my blog the day it started).

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!

okay time for an update.

2011-01-17T16:02:00.003+08:00

just will do a quick update on stuff i've been doing lately.

the events are arranged by when the events happened, and i'll start from the events that happened first all the way to the most recent events, if you get what i mean .

yf camp during the middle of december. highly recommended that you guys come for the next one !

a banana i had to dress up for one of the activities.

me with a weird face holding a torn flag (we were playing catch the flag)

due to my barbaric-ness, i tore a flag by accident.

spending time with nonsense people;

everyone there except for Justin (guy on the right) is my friend. i don't like him with his ugly haircut .___.

slumber parties !

Hello.

I’ve just finished reading....

I rate it an 8/10. It’s a gooooooood book! It’s a bit long though, it took me 3 weeks (not including my 2 weeks holiday because i didn’t read it then) to finish reading it. I’m quite sad though, usually if I feel sad to finish a book, it shows that it’s a good book.

oh you know what, i suddenly got lazy
ok byebye. im going to start packing for home now and start reading...

what's with jmee and making weird facial expressions while taking webcam shots with books? tsktsk.

im such a disappointment.

2010-11-27T12:10:00.003+08:00

my blog hasn't got more than 10 views within the past 2 days (or even more) wth.
i'm getting dead-er and dead-er by the minute.
and to reinforce that even more...
i'm not going to say anything more in this post.

byebye!

i'm a busy person! :D (now that exams are over, hee).

J-MEE'S NEWEST HEARTTHROB is not real. obviously.

2010-11-25T17:00:00.005+08:00

hello everyone! yes I am very much alive ! :D

sorry for all the one-two sentence long posts. I'm finally freeeee rawrrr! unleashed from the deadly torture of.... exams! (gasp along with me people!)

I'm actually very happy, the fact that I don't have to pray every 10 minutes to God that I wouldn't break down and start crying/laughing out of frustration.

yeah, it's only my junior year at school, but I still want to do well! i can finally read all the books i want to now! :D i've just finished reading Cross my Heart and Hope to Spy by Ally Carter yesterday (and started it only several hours before finishing it)

actually hor , i don't really like the way she writes it.

1) she exaggerates the character of a stereotyped teenage girl (which was actually quite accurate in terms of how girls really do behave nowadays, but it's still quite annoying)

2) Josh in her first book of the Gallagher Girls (I'd tell you I love you but then I'd have to kill you) was soooo not hot even though he was supposed to be such a sweetheart.

3) I hate her because she made Zach in Cross my Heart and Hope to Spy super duper hot (I don’t even know how, he’s actually quite ridiculous and stupid. But I guess ridiculous and stupid is my type)
it's the same concept on how people are in love with Edward Cullen, Jacob Black, Noah Calhoun and other fictional characters who are just WEIRD AND CREEPY (i wouldn't actually like someone who would watch me sleep especially when i'm oblivious of it, or a guy who makes me kiss him if not he would commit suicide). I don't actually have anything against Noah tho, but he's still kinda weird.

4) she's messy and not very clear. Like, even Amy said that she couldn’t get the book (but obviously I did because I am A W E S O M E buahahahha)
no amy I love you and you're awesome too. just that you're not as much of a nerd as I am to read as much.

Ok I’m going crazy.

I actually told myself that I hated the first book very much and yet I could not help but read the second one. Don't you just love me for being so awesome?

anyway, i wouldn't reccomend it if you were looking for something more mature to read. I was reading Memoirs of a Geisha before this, so yeah it was a big step down for me to read this book.

oh wait, scratch that. I read Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging before this one, and half of The Sisterhood of Travelling pants (which is actually quite interesting but I stopped because of exams but haven’t resumed to reading it yet because I was stuck with CMHAHTS)

goodbye everyone, i shall do a book review soon. I was half finished with MOAG.

ilovezachilovezachilovezach rawr!
he just stole a spot in my heart even though he already kissed another girl and he's not even real.

GOODBYE!

miss my face anot?

closing one eye because...

my right eye (actually it's my left but it's right in the photo) is swollen, as you can see.

OK BYE FOR THE 20TH THOUSAND TIME RAWR.

have i got any prettier? :D hahahaha jokes.

CONCON !

2010-11-23T20:36:00.003+08:00

you're room is empty and everytime i pass by it, it makes me sad.

gosh! i'm starting to feel sick by being so sticky~

GUESS WHAT?!!?!?!?

2010-11-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

my ear is infected
!@#$%^

HP.

2010-11-22T15:13:00.003+08:00

It was actually quite messy at times

And also, I had to ask for a lot of explanations as I have never watched a single Harry Potter before ._. I only watched half of The Order of Phoenix (or whatever, sorry I’m too lazy to google it’s real name) as it was soooo boring I just turned it off.

Oh, the third one was played in the camp bus but I went to sleep cos I found it utterly boring and pathetic.

Anyway, I’m finally reconsidering to have a Harry Potter movie/book marathon.
Nuala and Liv’s dream has finally came true.

Note to self: post about Nuala’s and Liv’s obsession of HP.

I shall complete my first sentence now ( I haven’t completed the first sentence of the post)

It was actually quite messy at times…

but I won’t deny the fact that I was slightly amused by JK Rowling because I found it quite interesting.

Gooooooodbyeeeeeeee : )

saya mahu...

2010-11-22T15:03:00.005+08:00

sony nex-5.

a baby DSLR :) which is super user friendly rawr.
not like other DSLRs.

i want...

i've hit the peak.

2010-11-22T14:13:00.005+08:00

The last Sunday on the graph is referring to yesterday.

Hello everyone.

As you can see, I have not only decided to post but I even took the time to make a graph to illustrate what I’ve been through for the past week.

I had a mental breakdown yesterday, started crying and laughing and wailing away. I pity my dear roommate who had to bear with my sniffing and my-noise-made-by-choking-on-my-saliva.

You know what, I don’t actually think I should be sorry at all. It’d just take it as revenge towards her loud snoring at night ._.

Sorry everyone, but right now I don’t have the enough brain juice to even attempt on making this post funny or interesting in any possible way.

Ok, back to the topic. So anyway after about 30 mins – 1 hour of drowning myself in self pity, I went to sleep and woke up the next day (today) feeling… I really do wish I could say “pumped and refreshed” but honestly, that’s not how I felt or feel right now ._. anyhoo, I don't feel as horrible as I did last night, so I guess I'm ok after all. Actually, guess what I did when I woke up?

I had 3 pcs of toast! Woohoo yumm.

I don’t that most of you realize this (or maybe you do?), but technically, this is a ranting post.

So yes, go ahead and gag all you want.

Goodbye, I still have about 50 mins till school ends so yes, I’ll post more.

don't read.

2010-11-20T20:56:00.004+08:00

if you can't stand someone who complains a lot.

i'm angry
i'm tired
i'm frustrated
i'm hopeless
i'm sad.

i want to go home.

i miss grandpa, for the very first time.

please don't talk to me about this post,
don't mention it,
for goodness sake, don't even give a hint.
unless you know you should.
i'm sorry to say that the my family doesn't fall into the category of those who should.

like my hair?

2010-11-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

j-mee giving her tired, frustrated and angry face.

CONNIE XU.

2010-11-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

i'm going to miss you D:

a tear or two.

2010-11-15T14:12:00.003+08:00

I suddenly realized how homesick I am.
Probably it's because stress finally hits me, and usually that's when i'm the most "miserable".

miserable isn't the right word, i'm not miserable. i'm just pretty sad.

i wanna go home, i don't want to sit my exams. i'm not ready to fail something i want to accomplish.

rawrrawrrawr.

2010-11-14T20:58:00.004+08:00

need to study
need to study
need to study
need to study
need to study
need to study
need to study
need to study

i need, i really NEEDD to get at least 4 As for this exam.
math
science
history
& music

i doubt i'd get an A for eng.
rawr.

I need to!!

if not
if not....

I'LL JUST BE
SO

ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and YOU won't like me when i'm ANGRY! (imagine J-Mee's Hulk voice)

just for those who don't know...

my exams here aren't like those back home where we have to take exams for like 10 subjects (stupid subjects such as Moral or Civics or Health, etc etc. CRAP RIGHT?!!?!? and those exams in my opinion, is truly and useless in any way possible. + they're in Malay ._.)

SO YES I ONLY HAVE 5 EXAMS TO SIT FOR ; )

attempt on hiatus from blogging = failed.

2010-11-13T11:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes i amuse myself so much :O

anyway, the reason why im here is entirely Connie's fault. YES CONNIE, YOUR FAULT.

if you didn't play POKEMON last night, i probably would have went to bed earlier. if i went to bed earlier, i wouldn't have woke up as late as i did today. hence, I would have got to practice music and not BLOG.

well, the reason why I can't practice my music is because Ms Clark (the only one who can dis-alarm the music practice rooms) went out like 10 minutes before I decided to practice my music. initially, i was supposed to practice 1 hour before Ms Clark even went out.

BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, me and connie were talking about kidnapping PIKACHU(S)

unfortunately, I only want one of them. pffft.

1103 views since 23 oct :O

2010-11-10T14:40:00.001+08:00

for someone who has a dead blog like me, i'm actually proud that i hit a thousand views in less than 3 weeks, hee.

anyway, sorry to say but, i will be going on hiatus from now onwards till my exams are over (24th November). it ends exactly 13 days from now.

getting a little stressed out, hais. what to do? the only thing left is to...

look like a nerd by studying before school, during recess, lunch, after school, after dinner, and before sleeping.

goodbye fun.

freaking spoiled.

2010-11-09T17:02:00.002+08:00

Life isn’t fair, life was never fair, life won’t be fair, life has never been and will never be...

Fair.

No one said it would be, everyone knows that, but somehow not everyone seems to be able to grasp it.

The thing i really don’t like the most is when people say, “if God really does exist, why does the world have to suffer?”

Excuse me, if you have been listening in Sunday School, your naggy parents perhaps? Or even God’s “fanclub” (as you call them) maybe you’d know that the world has been condemned and meant to go down the drain.

Yes, do you know who the prince of the world is?

If you said Satan, you’ve got it spot on.

And when people keep saying that we’re stupid for believing in God even though we have problems, may I ask you, who in this UNIVERSE said that you wouldn’t have problems after becoming a Christian? Maybe some doink who can’t get his information right.

So right now, think about this.

We call God, our Father, yeah? If a father really does want his child to grow up and be independent, he can’t spoil the kid, right?

If you pamper a kid too much, he/she might end up being SO freaking spoiled (Paris Hilton proves my statement).

A petted kid is USUALLY (not always) a spoiled kid.

And the last time I check, the two words “freaking spoiled” put together is actually something pretty negative. Ok, you may say, “PH get’s EVERYTHING she wants, so who gives a damn?”

BAM. In 10 years time she might be dead, or her nose drops off. I don’t know and I honestly don’t care.

No one deserves to die, not even someone horrible and rotten. Well maybe they are, maybe they’re not. It’s not for us to judge.

Call me a weirdo who believes in God, i don’t care anymore. In fact, i’d be pretty proud of it.

Anyone who finds this post offensive in any way, sorry. But it’s just my personal opinion.

apology to myself.

2010-11-08T17:37:00.004+08:00

It felt like a thousand needles was poking every single part of my back and head.

It was too painful to hear what we heard at the assembly today. I never thought that this feeling was even possible. Heck yeah i don’t actually know either of those girls. But i think you might as well pierce a sword through me, I don’t think the pain could get any worse.

The feeling of a certain kind of coldness. It isn't the kind that you felt during winter, it's the kind that you when someone just drops you into a pool of ice water. I couldn’t stop shaking, i felt like i was going to just freeze to death. i was holding my hards so tightly i didn't even realize it and when i finally realized, the pain kicked in.

i cried, everyone cried.

Even my English teacher cried for goodness sake! That’s how bad things are.

everything was so different today, classes were quiet, most faces were red and eyes puffy.
but what stood out the most was someone either laughing or smiling. somehow, looking at someone laugh today just felt wrong.

it isn't actually, it just felt that way.

I didn’t know a death of a “stranger” would affect me or the rest of the world so badly.

So yeah, there’s like 200000 billion people in the world (obviously not an accurate statistic) but every single person, every single individual, every single death matters.

I’m sorry to myself i ever took the death of someone for granted.